What a slippery slope self is. I've been desperate for Jesus for as long as I can remember and in love with Him for a very long time. I've gone, over the years, to a lot of Bible studies and Christian conferences in order to know Him better. I've learned about grace, and mercy, and forgiveness, and unconditional love. Lately, I've spent time sitting alone in His Presence and I've been feeling good, victorious, like an overcomer. But still-self is a slippery slope.
It only takes one morning when I have to rush off somewhere and I don't take the time to read my Bible or pray, and I've lost my footing. It doesn't take but one day of my family visiting and the old triggers ignite, and I'm starting to slide. It doesn't take but one afternoon of black storm clouds moving through and my body aches all over and I'm tripped up.
You get the picture. It doesn't take much at all to make it all about me. "I don't feel good. I shouldn't have said that. I want what she has. I don't belong there. I'm too old to do that".
It's time. I know it's time. Jesus has shown me it's time. Time to grab hold with both hands. Time to center myself in His Presence each day. Time to keep my focus on His love and grace. Time to make it all about Him.
"The Lord directs the steps of the godly. He delights in every detail of their lives. Though they stumble, they will never fall, for the Lord holds them by the hand", Psalm 37:23-24. NLT
I can sure relate to this Peggy, I try not to listen to that voice that likes to say one step forward and two steps back (this is athe deciever of our souls) Any strides we make in our walk with Jesus is an opening in the pathway of our life. Just don't let those steps keep you stranded in place. You have recognized that you were hindered, so Now it is time to shake it off and keep going...remember: Thy Word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path...The Word of God is always with you and so is His Holy Spirit.
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Jesus sometimes gives me the idea to sit with Him in His presence in the morning in the living room when everyone is gone or asleep. This is reassuring and refreshing.
ReplyDeleteI find when I'm not focused on Him or my mind is wandering waaaaay too much I feel "out of touch" and not connected with Him like I should. He told me that all my spirit wants is Him basically and I couldn't agree more!
Hugs and blessings on walking with our First Love ♥
Peggy wonderful post. Thank you for sharing dear one.
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