My blog posts have been sporadic to nonexistant lately. I have been in severe back pain that is getting worse, for six months. When I am in pain, that is all I can think about. I got a diagnosis yesterday from a spine specialist. I have cervical spondylosis which is a fancy term for degenerative arthritis in my neck and bone spurs that are pressing on nerves. This is causing pain in my upper mid back, my right arm and right side. He put me on an exercise, traction and walking program. The other option is surgery which neither my doctor nor I want.
I have been really down and feeling hopeless and frustrated and like I will never feel good again. The best thing about my diagnosis is that several weeks ago I woke up one morning and the first word that came to my mind was spondylosis. I wonderd where in the world that came from so I googled it and when I saw what it was I thought "Jesus is telling me what is wrong with me". When the doctor gave me the same diagnosis it made me feel so good that Jesus does love me and that He does care about what I am going through.
Heaven-born faith is what I want regardless of my circumstances or how I feel. Charles Spurgeon explains what that is: "It is a poor faith which can only trust God when friends are true, the body full of health, and the business profitable; but it is true faith which holds by the Lord's faithfulness when friends are gone, when the body is sick, when spirits are depressed, and the lift of our Father's countenance is hidden. A faith which can say in the direst trouble "Tho He slay me, yet will I trust in Him" is heaven-born faith".
Please pray for me that I will have faith that does not waver through my pain, that I will start feeling better, and that my pain will subside. Thanks so much! I've missed you.