I have been struggling since I got back from Oklahoma. "I am tired. I hurt my back. My stomach hurts. I don't want to get out of bed. I am depressed. I am sick of this stormy weather". You get the picture. I am focusing too much on myself.
As long as I can remember I have been self-absorbed. I think it happens when you go through abuse or some trauma. I know, in my case, I have struggled with depression and negative thinking. It takes so much time and mental energy every day to battle these demons so that I can function that it keeps my mind on myself.
I hate being that way. I don't want to be self-absorbed, self-indulgent, self-conscious. Self, Self, Self. I know it's not about me. It's all about Jesus. But I need God's help to overcome my self.
My "I" thoughts need to be about Jesus and not about me: "I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one can come to the Father except through me", John 14:6. "I am the gate. Those who come in through me will be saved", John 10:9. "I am the good shepherd. The good shepherd sacrifices his life for the sheep", John 10:11. "I am the vine, you are the branches. Those who remain in me, and I in them, will produce much fruit. For apart from me you can do nothing", John 15:5. You get the picture.