I've been beating myself up for as long as I can remember. I'm sure my soul is totally bruised and black and blue by now from all the self inflicted punishment. I don't think I'm ever good enough, have done enough, made the right decisions, or done the right things. I listen to Satan's accusations instead of God's truth. And I'm so very, very tired of it.
My husband told me that in a boxing match, when one opponent gets beat to the floor or into a corner and can't fight anymore, the referee jumps in and declares a TKO or technical knockout. When the referee does this, the fight is over. One man is declared the victor and the other is saved from being pounded into a pulp.
I'm at that point. Jesus is teaching me about grace. He's teaching me to give up the striving and self effort. He's teaching me that I don't need to be good enough or do enough. He's teaching me to lay it all down and surrender to Him. He is making me victorious over Satan's lies and calling a technical knockout on beating myself up.
"The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still", Exodus 14:14. NIV
"With God we will gain the victory, and He will trample down our enemies", Psalm 108:13. NIV
"For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith-and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God-not by works, so that no one can boast", Ephesians 2:8-9. NIV